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08-08-08!

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 19:32:06 GMT

Today is the best date of my birthday ever, 08-08-08!

It could only be better if you were born on August 8 and were turning 8 (or some variation thereof like 18, 28, etc.). Or I suppose had you been born 08-08-88, you would be having another birthday with a lot of 8's in it.

But anyways...pretty cool! Not to mention the Olympics start today and I am going to Unity tonight!

The Joys of College...

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 02:58:30 GMT

...So I have basically sucked at life the past couple of days. I say this meaning by my definition of sucking at my own life...because I know that I am not a total failure and that I am very lucky in many respects...

This is my rant for the weekend of my frustrations (reading it will most likely be a waste of your time):

I am getting burned out with school. Last night I just sat and stared at the tv for about 3 or 4 hours (even when it was off for about an hour) and today I have gotten no homework done. I have a big speech to give Wednesday night with a partner, over SFAS 109 for accounting class, and a precis due for morality on Thursday. Yeah, I am well aware I have a few days...but I needed to get stuff done this weekend and I am not doing it.

I am having issues spending time with my homework because I do not want to be an accountant. My family sure does, and that is why I am in this mess. I chose this so that they would be happy with me and because I actually believed their way of thinking when I first came to college. I picked this major because of the money it would offer me, and that is why my family approved of it. I was always taught this order for life: college education, get a highly paying job, and then you were allowed enjoyable things like spending a lot of time with friends, having a boyfriend, and going on vacation.

After I realized that what makes me happy isn't making tons and tons of money at the expense of having a faith life, friends, and time to relax I stopped think that was the correct life order. But a lot of times I will still feel guilty for doing things I enjoy when it puts off doing homework. And I am still stuck in accounting. I am so close and yet so far from graduation. I want it to come so desperatly, but at the same time I do not want it to ever come. My parents will only be disappointed when they find out I lack life plans, will not have some amazing job offer right out of college, and will be nothing of what they always wanted.

And recently my professors have pushed me into hating accounting even more - they have really high expectations of me because I do so well. They continually push me to try harder, give better answers, and go more in-depth on things. I feel like I have nothing left to give because I lack the motivation and thus I have not stored the information like I should have if I really wanted to pass a CPA exam. I have also not told them of my dislike of accounting because I do not want to be forced out of the program....which maybe I deserve, I do not know.

This whole thing has taught me that I can put in endless work, hours of my life, spend little time with friends and family, and work myself until I am incredibly sick to get good grades even when I absolutely hate what I am doing...but other than that, I have no idea where to go and I am still just sitting here, accomplishing nothing.

school

Wed, 27 Feb 2008 04:04:00 GMT

So why is it that the one week I have so much homework that I cannot finish it all well, if at all, that there are a ton of people over? This is cool for everyone else, but it makes me sad. I have to do all this work, and I am getting relatively little done except to be stressed and possibly sick, while everyone else has fun and is loud and annoying to me.

Sigh...

And they think the new fish is dying. He is one of God's creatures, but he is only a fish. I have lived through many fish deaths in my life. They have relatively short lives, especially when they come from stores (Meijer) that don't care for them well from the beginning.

Things I Prayed For...

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 03:11:25 GMT

Lyrics by Eli

Things I prayed for when I was young

That my father would love me like his only son
That my mother would be patient with me
And my sister would not leave
And if my grandpa could see me beyond his grave
That he'd think his little man was so great
That my hair would not stick up in weird places
And I'd be someone someday

Years go by so easily that sometimes I forget
Years go by and make me see that there's no time for my regret
No time for my regret

Things I prayed for in my teens
That God would forgive all my evil deeds
That my father and my sister would come home
And mom could meet our needs
And if my grandpa could see me beyond his grave
That he'd say a prayer for his family's sake
That my hair would stick up in weird places
And I'd be someone someday

Years go by so easily that sometimes I forget
Years go by and make me see that there's no time for my regret
No time for my regret

Things I pray for now in my twenties
That God would still love me
That my dad would like his new family
That I could hug my sister, that my mom could rest
That my wife would still melt every time we kissed
And if my grandpa has seen me beyond his grave
How cold and silent he has remained
That my hair would not fall out in weird places
And I'd be someone someday

Years go by so easily that sometimes I forget
Years go by and make me see that there's no time for my regret
No time for my regret

These are the things I prayed for
That I'd be someone someday

Christmas Break

Sat, 29 Dec 2007 23:49:00 GMT

Christmas Eve and Christmas were good.

I am now bored...really bored. I love having break, being away from school and stuff. But I don't have a car. So I sit here, at home for hours and hours. I love reading, and I have video games and movies...but after so many hours they just are not able to fill all the time. I miss being able to do stuff with other people.

Sorry Rachel, if I didn't get to talk to you before you read this. I wanted to come tonight, but I had no way to get there and then get home.

What do you think?

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 23:53:18 GMT

I posted this to my livejournal a little bit ago...sorry.

Here it is, (and I hope that the person I borrowed it from doesn't mind that I did). What do you guys think about this list?

25 Things a Girl Wants, but Won't Ask For....

1. Share your secrets with her.
2. Give her your jacket if she is cold.
3. Kiss her unexpectedly.
4. Hangout with her and your friends together.
5. Take pictures with her.
6. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
7. Hug her from behind around the waist.
8. Tell her she's beautiful.
9. Open doors for her, like a gentleman.
10. Kiss her in front of other girls you know.
11. Show her (by your actions) how important she is to you.
12. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you. Wipe away her tears when she cries.
13. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
14. Kiss her on the cheek.
15. While in the movies, put your arm around her
16. Don't EVER tell her to leave - even jokingly - or act like you're mad.
17. When people put her down, stand up for her.
18. Hold hands.
19. Always remind her how much you love her - even if you think "she should know"
20. To be taken care of. (A man that is loving, honest, loyal and respectful)
21. Walk her to her car or to her door - it makes her feel protected
22. Buy her stuff.
23. Play with her. Enjoy each other, laugh together.
24. Flirt with her.
25. An apology when you are wrong.

One Body in Christ

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 04:45:25 GMT

Brothers and sisters:
We, though many, are one Body in Christ
and individually parts of one another.
Since we have gifts that differ according to the grace given to us,
let us exercise them:
if prophecy, in proportion to the faith;
if ministry, in ministering;
if one is a teacher, in teaching;
if one exhorts, in exhortation;
if one contributes, in generosity;
if one is over others, with diligence;
if one does acts of mercy, with cheerfulness.

Let love be sincere;
hate what is evil,
hold on to what is good;
love one another with mutual affection;
anticipate one another in showing honor.
Do not grow slack in zeal,
be fervent in spirit,
serve the Lord.
Rejoice in hope,
endure in affliction,
persevere in prayer.
Contribute to the needs of the holy ones,
exercise hospitality.
Bless those who persecute you,
bless and do not curse them.
Rejoice with those who rejoice,
weep with those who weep.
Have the same regard for one another;
do not be haughty but associate with the lowly.
--Romans 12:5-16

Rom. 8:26-30

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 02:47:40 GMT

Brothers and sisters:
The Spirit comes to the aid of our weakness;
for we do not know how to pray as we ought,
but the Spirit himself intercedes with inexpressible groanings.
And the one who searches hearts
knows what is the intention of the Spirit,
because he intercedes for the holy ones
according to God’s will.

We know that all things work for good for those who love God,
who are called according to his purpose.
For those he foreknew he also predestined
to be conformed to the image of his Son,
so that he might be the firstborn
among many brothers.
And those he predestined he also called;
and those he called he also justified;
and those he justified he also glorified.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Tue, 23 Oct 2007 01:12:05 GMT

God I trust you, and I know you are listening.

Grant me strength and understanding.

"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much."

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 01:24:34 GMT

It has been an interesting break. Not everything that I wanted it to be, but good.

The Relient K and Switchfoot concert had really good music. Relient K played the theme from The Office, and it was amazing. However, the crowd was the worst I have experienced in a long time. So many kids were crowd surfing, I had feet crashing into my head and kids almost being dropped on me. The kids were also pushy...It was not a good crowd experience.

Other than that, today I found out that JK Rowling created Dumbledore as a gay character. So she reveals that now, without having any mention of it in the books, and after the whole series is done? That is ridiculous. I have lost a lot of respect for her as an author. There was no point to saying that (the news story reporting this information).